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New computer

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I stumbled back here through a piece of linked fan art, and lo and behold my new laptop actually allows me to view things on this site again. Interesting to see how much and how little things have changed in the what, two years(?) I've been gone. So hi, I guess, to those of you who knew me. It's been a while.

I don't have much in the way of art to post. My creative energy has kind of vanished, I guess, and what I have done isn't really very good. No one wants an artist without art or a writer who can't write, yeah? Yeah... I did actually finish a fairly substantial graphite piece last year. Maybe I'll dig that up.

Don't know that I'm really back per se—I really don't have much of anything to post or say. I guess I just wanted to poke my head back in here for a while for nostalgia's sake. I think I've disappeared pretty much everywhere else online anyway, so I wouldn't expect much.



This sort of thing was so much easier when I could feel more than overwhelming apathy.
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Site change

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Hey, all.

Unfortunately, part of my last journal entry no longer stands true: after six years on this site, I am leaving DeviantArt.

This is not because I'm no longer doing art or that I have some sort of rift with users here, or I want to create drama, etc.; I am leaving dA because the site simply doesn't work well for me anymore. My main computer, my laptop, has some issues with sites that extensively use Flash and Javascript, and DeviantArt only loads for me about 2/3 of the times I visit. It's incredibly frustrating, and I'm tired of it.

Now, this doesn't mean that I am deleting my gallery here. I tend to direct people that I meet offline who are interested in commissions (pet portraits and such) here so that they can get good examples of my colored pencil work. However, I will not be posting anything new here nor will I be responding to notes/comments/other assorted messages.

If you'd like to see anything new from me (nothing yet, but I do finally have a few things in the works), please feel free to follow me over on LiveJournal. My account there is seraphenite.livejournal.com/

I wish you all the best, and thanks for making my time here so wonderful. ♥
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Hey there, fellow deviants. I'm not (completely) dead, and I wanted to give a heads-up as to why my activity here has essentially been nonexistent these past few months. This is kind of personal, but I feel like a jerk if I don't offer up some explanation as to my disappearance, but if you want the short version of why I've been missing it's simply that I haven't been well. Plain and simple.

The longer explanation for my absence can be attributed mostly to depression. I had been severely depressed since January, to the point where basic tasks like eating felt like a chore. I had no desire to do much of anything and my art suffered. I stopped drawing almost altogether by February, and I wasn't keeping up with my studies in school or performing well at my job until I caved and sought professional help. I urge any of you who might be suffering from depression, or if you know anyone who might have depression, urge them to get help. This was a terrifying time in my life, and people need to treat depression as a serious ailment. It can and will affect every part of your life in some of the worst ways imaginable, and it's so much more than 'being sad' or lazy (the biggest symptom of my depression was apathy: I couldn't care less about anything, including keeping myself healthy, so it looked from the outside like I was being a lazy, introverted jerk). I have since vastly improved and my desire to create art again is slowly but surely coming back. However, I have had a major drawback that will likely keep me away from art for some time yet.

I aggravated the tendonitis in my wrists/hands at work a week or so ago (this is something I've had for nearly a decade now but it's gotten worse in recent years), and it has left me with pretty intense pain if I write/type/draw/do much of anything with my hands for too long. It is endlessly frustrating and painful, and I would not wish it on my worst enemy. I am recovering, but it is slow.

In general, my presence (comments and the like) has been down because my computer contracted a wicked virus (twice) from dA's advertisements (which I've had problems with in the past), and I'd rather not spend another $90+ to fix my machine, so I'm going to continue to be lax on replies and comments. Sorry. I can't afford another major fix at the moment.

If you need to contact me for any reason (please keep in mind that I will not be accepting any commissions of any sort until further notice), please feel free to email me at tsarovite@yahoo.com. You'll receive a reply much faster than if you contact me through here.

Thanks for your patience to those of you who've stuck around, and hopefully I'll be back to my old self soon. :heart:

~Ame

Edit: Huh. Now that I look at it, it seems that I got a DD while I was gone. Okay...well, that's interesting I suppose.
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Hey, world

4 min read
Hey there, dA. Long time no see. Or little see, I guess would be the proper way to say it. Just wanted to update you all on why I've been kind of absent, and it's not DeviantArt-related at all. I have no plans to leave the site, so don't worry about that. This isn't a drama journal about how I'm leaving forever. :roll:

I've been going through a bit of a rough patch lately. There hasn't been anything specific that's been getting to me, but a multitude of small things and I guess just life in general has been weighing me down. I have had very little inspiration to do artwork and that in itself has been somewhat stressful, though I will say that I have been writing, of all things. It's interesting because I've never been much of a writer and yet, since December I've cataloged well over 100,000 words in personal writing projects.

I don't know why this creative switch has occurred, and I'm still drawing, but it's mostly sketchy little doodles in my notebooks when I don't feel like jotting down notes in class. No big projects except for the few commissions I have left; I haven't had much will to finish a lot of the stuff I have sitting around right now, and lately even my writing has slowed. I don't know where my creativity is going, but I hope it comes back soon.

I'm sure to come back to art, and rest assured that I haven't in any way given it up, but the stuff I've been producing lately hasn't been all that good - certainly not good enough for me to want to post it. I'll be around, even if it's sporadically, but I don't know when I'll be back to producing personal art the way I want to. Maybe when the apathy finally lifts itself from my shoulders.

And now, to move away from that somber tone, a tag. Because I haven't done one of those in years and SynysterShayde tagged me, so here we go.

Rules
1. Post these rules on journal entry if you are tagged.
2. Each person must post 10 things about themselves in their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons in the same journal. No thanks.
4. Go to their pages and send them a message saying you tagged them. Same deal here.
5. No tag-backs.

1) I am both a cat and rat lover. I currently own four kitties and a lovely white rat who goes by Rose. :heart:

2) I do not watch much television, but I am currently a hardcore fan of Fox's Glee.

3) I am an avid reader (and lately a writer) of fanfiction. Don't ask me where you can find my stuff. I won't tell you, so don't bother.

4) I work in a library. Treat your librarians with respect. It may be a 'free' service, but if you piss us off, remember: we have your personal information and it's very easy to land you in a heap of red tape over fines.

5) I am a teetotaler. I do not like the taste of alcohol and I also have a high tolerance. Why bother?

6) I am so excited for the new Star Trek movie set to come out in 2012 that I can barely contain myself.

7) I have a terrible immune system and am sick all the time. It's both frustrating and exhausting.

8) My parents are incredibly generous and I would not be able to make it through college without their financial and emotional support. I only hope that I can repay them in the future for how wonderful they have been to me.

9) One of the reasons I did not move out for college was fear of my cat dying without me there. He has severe attachment issues and tends to stop eating when I'm not around.

10) I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself after college and I'm insanely jealous of my friends who seem to have their lives in order. I hate feeling so out of control.
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Edit: Thank you to all of you who ordered an icon (or several) from me. Hopefully I will be able to offer them again in the future.

Okay, guys. I've got a really bad schedule this semester, and I am going to have to close my icon commissions at the end of January. After that, expect the prices on them to go up (if I even can offer them again). I just don't have the time to keep them going at my current prices. Depending on what people want, these things can take me upwards of fifteen hours to complete and I can't afford that kind of time commitment anymore.

So get 'em now while you can. I'm going to have ten slots open, and three of those are already filled from before I posted this journal. I'll update this as the slots fill up.

Open slots: Closed

My current prices are $3-$6 USD depending on the complexity of the character and movement. If you're interested, please send me a note with what you're looking for and I'll quote you a price.

To those of you who have already commissioned me, thank you so much. :heart: You don't know how much it means to me to have people desire my work.
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